Today is my last day with Gehl Company and I have a few weeks off before I start my new job.... and I'm petrified. Since I was sixteen, I've always had a job and earned a paycheck. After I gave birth to Alex, we stopped by the office to transfer my calls and email to my home so I could continue working and believe me, it was out of necessity rather than being a career-driven woman who didn’t want uninterrupted time with her infant. Once a week we’d make our way to the office in Chaska and if he was hungry, I'd lock my office door so I could nurse and I just did what I needed to do to continue providing for my family. A week didn't go by where I didn't work outside of the home earning a paycheck.
So here I am – looking at a nice long break from the workforce and I’m terrified. It has to be some sort of a mental illness to be worried about taking some time off from work. The idea of not earning a paycheck makes my stomach turn upside down - depending on someone else for shelter/food/etc makes me incredibly anxious. Despite my apprehension, I’m sure I will have a blast with Alex and we’ll spend our days at the pool and enjoying the last days of summer. Without the endless noise of everyday life, maybe God and I can have some much needed reconnection time and I’ll finally be able to give Alex a full day of my undivided attention
Deep breath….
Step forward….
Enjoy turning the pages to the next chapter in our lives……
2 comments:
I was the same way when I walked away from the paper. My departure turned out to be more permanent than yours is, but I panicked on my last day. I think that was more to do with the fact that I was starting a new life, and not that I was now completely dependent on my hubby and had to spend every hour with our son.
I'll be honest: it did take me a couple of days to adjust, but I did adjust. That's why four years later, I still haven't returned to the workforce.
I'm not saying you'll not want to return to the workforce. I am saying that you will adjust. Enjoy your time with that boy of yours. :-D
Thinking of you Amanda and praying you are doing well.
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